SENTIMENTS
SENTIMENTS
Sometimes,
it is hard to control your emotion especially when the person involve
on it is the person you loved the most. The mere fact that you love the
person so much, it is so painful to deal with the matter without any
tears falling in your eyes.
There
are certain situations that you are so afraid to know the truth behind
things because you don’t have enough courage to accept the truth… or
you don’t have enough strength to get over the pain.
It
is easy to tell yourself that “It’s over”, or pretend in front of other
people that everything’s just going fine, or simply make other people
believe that it’s nothing to you but behind those pretensions is a
crying heart.
Sometimes,
you have given everything for that person but you can’t help to ask
yourself this question “Where did I go wrong?” or “What else have I not
given?” and yet you couldn’t find the exact answer to ease the pain.
Trying
to convince yourself and believe in a certain reason that makes you
stupid is the main outlet for you to run out of what you really feel.
Despite of all the pain in your heart, you still continue to love the
person with all your heart, with all your life. “Stupid!” as what you
may call it but in reality, it is the truth.
We
get hurt and yet we still love, we are betrayed and yet we continue to
trust, and we feel disregarded to that very person whom your world
turns into and yet we still prefer to stay. What an irony! Even if we
are hurt, even if you cried for so long, even if nothing’s left for you
to stand up after the hurt…you will still have something to give for
that person when everything seemed to be dark in his/her own world.
After
all the storms in your life you will still find a reason to love that
person, be there in all the trying times of their lives, give them the
best that you can to make them feel loved but still in the end you will
be left with a bleeding heart, with a broken dreams and a shattered
life.
Until
the time that you would still want to give but there’s nothing more
left for you to give, that you would still want to love but you can’t
already afford to take another dose of pain in your heart. And when
you’re almost tired of everything and you’re at the edge of giving
up…he/she would tell you these words: “Pls. don’t give up on me!”
By: Enalyn Pelomiano
January 8, 2007
4:45 pm
